RAH

Lyrics

(whispering in tears)
Dear god I know we haven't spoke in a while. You know how I gets when I'm not myself. Deep inside. They know I will Never be RAH again.
[Verse 1]
God, I'm back on this floor again
Same prayer, same 2 AM
I thought I learned this lesson last time
Thought I left this hurt behind
My chest feels hollowed out and thin
Smile's up but I'm caving in
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm hurt
I'm disappointed
I'm holding faith with shaking hands
I don't know what You're doing
But I'm still here where I am
[Chorus]
God, I don't understand why I'm here again
Why this road keeps winding back to where I've been
I'm hurt, and disappointed, and uncertain
I can't see the plan when the sky goes dark
But please don't let this pain make me hard
Don't let this heart turn bitter
Show me what I need to learn
Touch the places that still burn
Heal what needs healing in me
And lead me into the man I'm supposed to be
[Verse 2]
I got questions I don't know how to say
Like are You silent or just making me wait?
I've been strong for so long I forgot how to break
Is it faith if it still feels like ache?
I don't want to carry anger in my skin
I don't want to carry anger in my skin
I don't want to build my walls up again
[Chorus - bigger, open]
God, I don't understand why I'm here again
If You have something for me, I can't see the end
I'm hurt, and disappointed, and uncertain
And I don't know what You have planned for me
But I don't want this to change who I am
Don't let me turn bitter
So show me what I need to learn
In the middle of this hurt
Heal what needs healing in me
And lead me into the man I'm supposed to become
[Bridge - stripped, raw whisper to shout]
Take the pride, take the fear
Take everything I've held too near
If this is breaking me apart
Then break me down to build my heart
I surrender what I can't control
You see the pieces that I can't hold
[Soft Chorus / Outro - like a prayer]
I don't want this to make me bitter
So show me what I need to learn
Heal what needs healing
Oh, heal what needs healing
Lead me into the man I'm supposed to become
Lead me into the man I'm supposed to become
Even here, even here again.